Physics Test

    I had just finished doing my physics test at the PE block. It’s the 2nd physics test but still, I have difficulties in doing it. I don’t know why but everytime the test started, I will always forget the formula and the ways to solve it. It’s kind of frustrating because I had worked and study damn hard for it. I had spent so much time to revise the damn subject but all that knowledges are flushed out from my brain when the test started. It’s also a mystery to me cause the night before the test, I can solved most of the questions and understand the physics concepts. The hour before the test, I flip through the lecture’s notes and I understand it and I thought I’m ready for the test. But once it started, down it goes all the things that I had spent my life memorise all the formula to the ‘toilet’. I can hear the flushing sound, the sound of knowledge sinking in a pit of shit. Mr Ch’ng gave us extra time for the test after he gave some tips about the initial potential energy question. And you know what? I don’t understand at all the tips he gave and all those extra time are useless to me since I can’t do anything at all. In conclusion, I screw up my 1st physics test and now I screw up my 2nd physics test. 

    I can’t really understand why this thing happen to me. It never happen to me before. On my way back home, I was thinking hard about this thing. Then, while sitting in a bus, an idea pop into my head. This is what I was thinking at that time, ‘ Why can’t I answer the damn questions?! They looked so easy but I still can’t figure it out. There is something blocking my mind, prevent me from answering the questions. But why?? Wait a minute! Maybe it’s not something, but someone! Yeah! Someone who got a grudge against me or just someone who picked a wrong guy at a wrong time. He/she must be performing some black magic on me so that I flunk my test. Yeah, yeah, that’s it! But wait…. Who would be the person?? Wahhhh….so confuse (scratching my head, hoping that by doing so, I can think better) Maybe it’s a sign? A sign that trying to tell me that physics is just not my ‘thing’ and also trying to tell me to backup and change my course (my course is civil enginnering) before it’s too late. Wow…. so many possibilities……. Ish.. must stop making reasons for my failure. Must take it like a man. Yeah…like a man. But I don’t feel good. Must be something behind it..‘ So, that is what I was thinking all the time while in the bus, trying to find reasons and at the same time, accept it as my own failure. Now, I try to keep this thing out from my mind and try to think other things that are more important. I will only think about this ‘physics mystery’ when the final exam is here.