The Problem Lies in You

Sometimes, I just don’t get how you think and process information. And I seriously don’t understand why you always treat her so badly when the only thing she done is care about you. I really wanted to scold you, cause it seems like that’s the only way it will reach into your thick head. But I kept quiet, all this while, because of her request that I shouldn’t interfere. You do all these because you afraid of what others might say about you. You see the problem here? The problem lies in YOU! You complain all the time about how people never take you seriously as a friend and care about you as a friend. But she’s there by your side all the time, your real, genuine friend and what do you say to her? You don’t want to be seen together with her because of what other people will think about you.

Have it ever cross your thick head on how it makes your friend feel? That you don’t want to be close with her because of your OWN self interest. Because of your OWN self image. Do you know how sucks it feels to be rejected by someone you care and the sole reason is because that person thinks that you will tarnish that person’s image? Maybe you don’t because everything in your head right now is about how unfair the world is treating you and how that guy never love you.

I thought that this story ends last year but it happened again. And I dislike writing about this here but after seeing her in pain, AGAIN, because of you, I guess I shouldn’t care so much on how you feel.

 

Life’s a Jigsaw Puzzles

I saw this few weeks ago online and find it pretty meaningful, so decided to share it here as well.

Basically, that’s how friendship works as well. If you have been spending so much time and effort to become friend with someone and that particular person doesn’t even bother to do the same, you have to evaluate it again, whether does that person worth the effort? I saw people within my circle before, trying so hard to fit into the group, trying to bow down to peer pressure, just to earn recognition from them. But in their effort to please more people, they fail to see that there’s people who really care about them.

Friendship is also like clapping. It takes both hands to clap. Similarly, it takes both sides to make the effort to be friend. If the other person doesn’t make any effort to get to know you, don’t get discourage. More importantly, don’t ever doubt yourself and put the blame on yourself. Don’t call yourself anti-social or lack of any skill. It just simply mean that you belong somewhere else, somewhere better where people actually appreciate you. (It also mean that, that guy’s an a**hole).

 

Annual Dinner Masquerade Style

I’m lazy to write a long post today, so just a very quick recap on what happened these past few days.

Company’s Annual Dinner

I have to admit, I always enjoy attending this type of dinner or any kind of dinner that is held in luxury hotel. It makes you feel like ‘above average’ when you get the chance to be served with wine, beer, expensive looking flavor drink and all those food that you thought you could only see them on Master Chef program. However, next year would be different for me because I’ll have to take part in the organizing team for the next annual dinner. That’s why have to enjoy now while it last. ><

A Day Out with Bestie

Since her birthday falls on weekend, I predict that she might be more busy than usual with outing with family/friends. Why join in the crowds when you can do it earlier, right? We met in Times Square and everything goes okay, until the lady caught me by surprise by telling out the price in front of her. A day before that, I already told the lady at the reception that this is supposed to be a surprise treatment for her, so be hush with the price. In the end, they surprise me instead.. ><

Once again, i felt the time passes pretty fast. After dinner, I glance at my watch and it’s already 8pm something. My original plan was to get her back at kelana station by 8pm. Malaysian timing huh..

Senior is BACK!

My senior is finally back from her 1 week vacation and I don’t believe I say this but, I’m so so glad to see her back in the office. =D   Although she already gave me few tasks to complete during her absence, something doesn’t feel right when you don’t have someone to clarify with or someone to check on you and point out your mistakes. Welcome Back! =D

 

Hopefully 10 years from now, my body figure will remain the same. No belly tummy ><

 

Moving Forward

I’m not sure whether is it just me or that as you grow older, every new year doesn’t seem like a huge deal anymore. I remember the time when I was young, I always look forward to the count down on new year eve and that time, it was a little bit of struggle to stay awake till midnight (it wasn’t a habit yet to stay up whole night) to watch the firework display. Another fun part for me when I was a kid was to watch the live telecast of fireworks on tv and immediately try to find that particular firework outside my window, just to compare the difference of the timing between those two. And once all that was over, I would wish my family a hearty new year greeting and went to bed happily, knowing that tomorrow will be a brand new start.

But now, I no longer feel the ‘magic’ of new year like I once had. It just felt like any normal day. Maybe I have to take things slow and appreciate every moment in life. But that’s easier said than done, especially when you started working and have datelines to chase.

Overall, 2013 was quite an important year for me, the year when I completed my 4 years course and graduated, though not officially yet. And it is also the year when I got my very first job and my first time in travelling oversea to Taiwan with coursemate. There are ups and downs and I learnt my lesson from all the mistake I made. Hopefully, I’ll be more prepare to face everything this year. “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” (Don’t take this literally! ><)