Result!! Finally!!

    This morning, I kept log in and log out from the UTAR portal just to check whether the result had been released or not. It had been a torturing sem break for me as I keep wishing that I won’t fail any of my subjects.  In fact, there’s a time where I actually tried to pray to the God so that I’ll never fail. But I restrained myself from doing so because I always consider myself as a free thinker. I stop praying to Him since I’m in form 3 and if I started to pray now because of this, it’ll be selfish and not sincere. Back to the topic, I never really enjoy my sem break because of this thing.

   While ‘facebooking’, a friend posted that the result is finally release. At that very moment, my heart beat starts to increase. *Degup*Degup* Degup*

Every click I made, my heart beats faster. *Degup*Degup*Degup*Degup*

Finally, I reached that page. *Degup*

Scroll down, Bahasa Kebangsaan exempted.  Ok, pass that subject without taking it. *Degup*Degup*Degup*

Scroll down, Pengajian Malaysia pass. Wohoo!! So far so good. *Degup*Degup*Degup*

Scroll down again. English pass. Predicted already. Thanks ‘father’ for your help in this subject. *Degup*Degup*Degup*

Scroll down further. Math……………………………………..pass!!! Yes!! (There’s a reason why I just say pass or fail and I never reveal my grade. You know lah, no need to say so much) *Degup*Degup*Degup*

Scroll scroll. Dynamics …. …. ….. ….. ……. …… ….. …..pass!! Never feel so proud before. *Lame*

    Yes!! Now only left one subject: Soil Mechanics. I was confident that I can get a good grade for this subject because I had spent so much effort for this subject. I done a consultation with my lecturer, read the whole chapters inside the textbook, practice the exercise, analyze the past year questions, done a study group with my friends and made my butt numb from sitting in the lecture hall to listen to the boring lecture.

But when I scroll down to see my grade, I was shocked to see it. I passed the subject but my math’s grade is better than my soil mechanic’s grade. My brain went blank for a few seconds as I tried to digest this new information. WTH, my soil got this grade!!! After rechecked few times, yeah, my math is better than my soil knowledge. I was disappointed looking at my result and my heart start to lose its motivation to keep on beating. *Degup*Degguu* De…..*…………………….*

But still, I need to appreciate that I had passed all of my subjects and stop asking for more. Now, I need to put more effort and boost up my performance. I’m glad that I don’t have to repeat as I can now still be with my friends.  

 Mood: Happy and sad at the same time. Like a sweet sour sauce.

 

Swim swim

    Before the final exam started, I had decided that once the doom days are over, I’ll go over to joseph’s apartment to learn swimming and copy the DMC 4 game from gan. 

    Reason to learn how to swim: Upgrading myself as most of my friends are able to do that while I can only ‘walk’ in the water.

    Reason to get the copy of DMC4 game: wanna slash something after seating the lousy exam.

    So, I was looking forward to this day until gan told me that he couldn’t come. Wahhh.. My DMC4!! That’s ok, I still got Daniel to play around with. Daniel: Not coming. What man!! What’s wrong with them? They told me that they could come and now they decided to “U turn”? That’s probably the reason why I hate going to friends outing because most will say they can make it but in the end, they didn’t show up. So, I spend the evening by learning how to swim. I thought it will be a piece of cake but when I started to submerged myself into the water, my body was shivering and my breathing rate increased rapidly. It took me some time to get used to the changes in temperature but my friend doesn’t seem to be bother with the temperature. Initially, I thought that I can learn how to swim in one day but I couldn’t even master the most basic technique, which is to float on the water. I keep on trying to straighten my body but I’ll always get it wrong. Still need more practice.

 

Mood: Slightly dissapointed.  

 

I’m scare..

    Never feel this scare before when taking the exam. I’m scare I fail my subjects. I’m scare I need to repeat all those fail subjects alone. I’m scare to see my result. I’m scare to be separate from those that I care. I’m scare to let my parent down when I tell them I fail. I’m scare to face all those newbie if I have to repeat. I’m scare to face all of my friends when they know I fail.

 

Mood: What else, scare la.

 

I’ll never miss U!!

    Just sat my dynamics exam today. The very 1st exam for my degree, and what a bad start.. Some questions just do half way, don’t really know how to end it. Got confidence on scoring full mark for question 5b (15m) until I heard from my friend, "No, cannot use this method, I don’t think can. You must use the omega over this over that over blah blah". Thank you for crushing my hope. I appreciate it.

    Oh Dynamics, if you were a person instead of a subject, I’ll push you down the rail when the Lrt train is coming. Just to let you feel how’s the feeling of being crush, like how you always do to those who aim to get an excellent CGPA. My only wish now is that I can pass the subject because I don’t want to see you again. I’m sick of trying my best to understand you and to love you but instead of helping me to do so, you create more unnecessary problem to me. I hope today will be the last day we meet.

 

Mood: Sad..