I am not sure about the rest of you but somehow there’s a pattern whenever holidays come. When my study weeks are still going on, I wish the holiday come as soon as possible. Now it’s already started, I don’t know how to spend mine wisely.. It will always be like this, the feeling of being useless during holiday.
1st week of schooling: I am glad to be ‘useful’ again and can’t wait to see all my friends. And the funny thing is I can’t wait to attend the lecture classes too in the 1st week. It’s a high spirit moment; I pay attention to what the lecturers say and I copy down all the details on the whiteboard: name, email and all those stuff. That’s just for the 1st week.
2nd week: This week is the “LC” week, where I always feel confident that I can ace all the subjects. “Walao, this subject not bad, can understand everything. This so easy, why still got seniors fail one? I don’t understand why people can fail this. I sure can one la” Although the lecturers only touch the introduction part, haven’t reach the killing part yet, somehow I like to convince myself that I can score well. Most of the tutorial questions can answer because, well, it just touch the intro part. It gives me the false sense of confidence.
3rd -6th week: Start to feel more ‘stupid’. The more the weeks past, the more I don’t understand what the lecturer is teaching. I just hear the lecturer talking, not listening. The answer page for the tutorial questions become cleaner and whiter than previous. That’s the time when the truth hit me in the face, telling me that the subjects are not easy as expected.
7th – 12th week: The moment of regret. These are the mid-term exam weeks and the time when I become Batman’s sidekick, staying up late with him to study or doing assignments. Depending on the subjects, the test results will tell me that i still have much to learn. I want to study more but then, that’s the time the assignments due date are around the corner. Now I understand why got senior fail.. T.T Usually, at this kind of weeks, the Nescafe company will notice a rapid growth in their sale and my parent will also notice the increase in the electric bill.
13th – Final exam weeks: Nescafe company continue to enjoy a steady business while my parent hate to collect letter from mailbox as they don’t want to see another outstanding electric bill. For me, this is the time I actually start to plan what to do during holidays; what to play, where to go, who to disturb, etc. I really looking forward to the holiday and feel like i deserve it.
Holiday!!: Although I have plan what to do, I don’t really know how to start.. After spending so many weeks rushing and absorb as many data as possible, now the holiday is here, it feels like everything move in a slow motion. The time past really slow and I wake up slower than usual. Perhaps I miss the adrenalin rush.
That’s for the long semester. For the short sem, it’s 2x the craziness, 2x the rush, 2x the madness but my result remain the same, never increase 2x. Life is so unfair.
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