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Monday’s blue

   

    Main objectives of going to Utar today: 1) Learn something from the consultation with Ms Bee. 2) Practice to set up theodolite for my survey practical test.

    Reached Utar at 8.30am. Read newspaper for a while and then revise math subject in library. Talk with friends about how suck is the fluid result. After eat lunch, feel motivated to listen to what Ms Bee going to teach. In that 1 hour plus consultation, the only thing that I think I understand is the shaft thing and Bernoulli equation. That’s all. The rest is blur case. Don’t really enjoy that consultation because I feel like I’m a burden to her and to the rest of my course mates. She might be able to explain better in Chinese and my coursemate might be able to understand her better but just because of me, she had to use English to explain everything. So, the 1st objective can be considered as failure.

    Left the next objective. Finish the consultation at around 4.15pm. Want to practice the survey stuff but somehow, of all the 24 hours a day, the rain only decided to “come” at 4pm something. We tried to book the apparatus on Wednesday morning to practice but the aunty doesn’t allow it. We have no choice but to sit the test without much preparation. So, objective failed again. Should have stay at home and rest.

Mood: Tired

 

   

 
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Posted by on August 30, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

Death

    Death.  I don’t think many people actually spend their time thinking about it. Instead, they think about stuff that seem very important to them; teenagers are more concern about their result in finals while working adults take their job as the main priority. Little do they know that this success or achievement will never last forever. You are born into this world with empty hand, and hence, you will die with empty hand too. The reason why I talk on this topic is because recently, I watched a music video on facebook and if I remember correctly, the tag title is “when u watch this, u will know how fast time flies”. Something like that.  I had posted the video in my profile and you can have a look at it but if you are a lazy bump, then this is the summary of the video: An old man, whose wife has passed away, visits the place where he and his wife usually spent time together there during their adolescent age. He recall the happy times he spent with his loves one and really missed her.

    That’s the whole music video is about, the death of your loves one. After watching it, it really got me thinking on how I treat everyone around me. I always take granted on the one that I care; parents, family and friends. I never really think about how important their existence in my life. Perhaps it’s true when they said that you will never miss something until you lose it. Teenagers and adults always chasing after success and achievement and ignore everyone around them while doing so. They never realize that the ones that are close to them are the most important part of their lives. Unlike success, once the people that you love are gone, you can never get them back or find any replacement for them. There’s no way of earning the loss life back.

    To prove my point, you will always see people post stuff like “Wahh.. so stress”, “Final coming, must work hard”, “lazy to study”, “Gambatte to those who goin to seat for test” in their facebook profile but they very seldom post anything to appreciate those around them.

    So far, I only know 3 of my friends whose father have passed away. I really pity them but all I could do is to tell them to be strong and never give up. Easier say than done. I can never ever imagine how I would feel if I was one of them. I will be devastated and lose hope on everything. I’ll blame the world especially god on why is this thing is happening to me. In fact, I’ll punch those who keep telling me to keep moving forward and all those positive stuff. There’s nothing positive outcome from the death of the loves one. That’s why I always admire those 3 friends because they can cope with it really well. For me, the loss will be too painful for me.  I guess maybe it’s because I’m weak when it comes to human emotion. I gotta start to appreciate those around me now.

Mood: Scare..

 
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Posted by on August 28, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

Random Stuff

1) Statics Assignment.

    Among all the assignments I did so far, this one can be consider as a ‘messy’ project. Cause I’m not really satisfied with the way it was organized and the process of completing it. I’m not happy with the lecturer too as she was really arrogant and stuck up old lady. Come on, you are not volunteering to teach us, we paid you to do it. Since we have a bit of trouble with it, we thought it’s best to have a consultation with her to see her opinion. But that’s the worst consultation I ever have. She was totally useless and never even bother to explain it clearly to us. All she does was mumble here and mumble there. Whenever we asked her questions, she will look here, look there, check handphone, see whether her fingernail long or not, etc. She didn’t even reply the email that we sent before the consultation. People with this kind of attitude shouldn’t be an educator at all.

2) Fluid mechanics

    Formula stuff.. I always have problem with formula thingy. During foundation, I actually struggle just to pass my physics subject. Last sem, it was dynamics and now, its the lousy fluid thingy.  I’m dead meat now cause I really do badly for my test 2. After a rough calculation, I need to do really well just to pass my test! Sniff* when will this thing going to end.. Why can’t they put more language based exam.. (thats the only subject that I got an A. the rest no need to say liao)

 3) Wrath?

    Recently, while going back home with a friend, we were just talking crap when all of the sudden, he told me that I got angry pretty fast. In other word, I have a very bad temper. I tried asking him why do he said so and what have I done that have made him to think that way. But he couldn’t show any example and just said that it was based on his feeling. Kinda confused with what he is trying to say but maybe its true because I always in a bad mood whenever this other shitty guy is around me.

Mood: Tired..

 
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Posted by on August 24, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

Final exam..

    Final exam is coming soon!! But somehow I still feel relax about it. I guess it’s because I’m a true Malaysian, who do things or revise at a very very last minutes.  It’s like in a movie where the most exciting part is always at the end part of the movie. The hero will chase down the bad guy, the police car will crash, and all the places will explode, bang here bang there, something like that. But in real life, when the exam date starts to chase me, my ‘motherboard’ will crash, and all parts of my brain will explode because of the rapid uploading of information, bang here bang there. 

    So far, everything is ok except for math 2 and fluid mechanics. Fluid mechanics…. OMG.. Trying to understand the fluid mechanics subject is like trying to understand how woman’s mind works. It’s possible but it involves so many formulas, calculations and all those equation stuffs. Thank god it’s an open book test or else I have no more hope already. Now that a lot of my lecture classes had ended, I gotta start to use this extra time to upgrade myself. This sem, I got beaten twice by that guy, and I will do everything I can to prevent that from happening again. Gambatte!!  

Mood: Fighting mode: ON

 
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Posted by on August 12, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

Assignment

    I love assignments not because of the stress load from it but because it’s a great way to see a person real attitude. Although I had mentioned it before in my previous posting, it really never fail to amaze me on how human behave when you give them work to do. They can talk a lot, prove the equation or all those stuff but when you ask them to do something, you can see all the proven equations will only turn to excuses. Not to boast around but I seldom judge a person wrongly. When I meet a person, I will mostly judge him/her based on how they act or talk (although the person’s appearance also matter here. Eg: perverted look, innocent, stuck up, etc.) After I judge them, the assignments will usually help me to prove my assumption and show that I judge the person correctly without any bias. This semester, all the assignments that I had done really reinforce my hatred to a certain someone.    
 
Mood: Angry. My life sucks having you around Angry smile
 
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Posted by on August 5, 2010 in Uncategorized